Decluttering!!! October 29, 2009

Current Goal: 1) I will reorganize my house one room at a time (a. master bedroom, b. office, 2) Change up diet and exercise, 3) I will have a family meeting 1 time per week-Thursday nights, 4) Give myself a break! 

Current Struggle:  Strength Training.

Current Weight: 164.8 (up 2 pounds from previous Julie weigh-in.)

Current Mood: Rejuvinated. ****************************************************************

Letting go of ‘baggage’ is very hard to do.  I know because I have been lugging mine around for a long time.  There are lots of reasons why I have done this.  It is familiar, which is a big plus for staying in my comfort zone.  It is a known feeling–nothing scary about that.  It is easier than letting go and moving forward.

However, it is also a major impediment to living in the ‘here and now’ and setting goals for a bright future.  This month I had an epiphany:  This revelation happened when I realized I have been holding onto a lot of emotional ’clutter’.  I have allowed hurts and disapointments in my past to control me and my present actions.  In these past eight months, I have been trying so hard to be my best, healthy, happy me; however, trying to do that while holding onto my baggage is like trying to jump for joy with weights attached to your ankles.  Your not going to get very high.  Don’t get me wrong, I am amazed at my progress in the challenge thus far.

What is even more amazing to me is the effort I put into going around the clutter…when life is so much easier when you sort through it, keep what is truly important (the lessons learned) and throw out the unimportant things.  Do not try to change things that you are not in control of…that is like banging your head against a brick wall–you are the only one with the headache and the wall is oblivous.  I’m not saying this is easy or pain-free…a resounding “NO” to both; however, it is so worth all the discomfort to come out on the otherside a renewed person with a different outlook on life and for life.  The freedom and relief this has brought me is vast.  The possibilities this gives me are immeasurable.

A special shout out to Ouida, Monica, and Gwen!  Your presence at the climb up Stone Mountain Saturday (10/24) was very much appreciated by me.  I enjoyed your conversation, camaraderie, and spirit while we climbed.  The climb and your presence was very apropos to reaffirming my epiphany this past month.  Thank you for being there!  Also, thank you Julie–my very helpful dietitian/theraphist for our meeting (10/21) for confirming my direction : ) 

LIVE WELL!